My walk with the Lord hasn’t always been a straight path. It’s taken hard, sharp turns. It’s taken detours. And there have been times where it’s stopped altogether.
Growing up in the church, Jesus was no stranger to me but I never felt like I knew Him. He was like this mystical being that I knew was real, but couldn’t feel. I knew He could hear me, but I rarely heard Him. There were times where I would wonder, “Am I doing this right?”
Being in a relationship with God isn’t suppose to be one sided. And for most of my life, it has been. It’s been me asking, but not giving. It’s been me telling, but not seeking. It’s been me talking, but not listening.
As I entered into adulthood, I quickly realized I couldn’t rely on my parents to get me to church anymore. Perusing God was 100% my choice now. Walking through life as a 20-something millennial with big dreams and list of goals a mile long, isn’t easy. Especially on your own. It was hard (and still is) for me to come to terms with the hard truth that my life is not my own. My life is God’s. My heart, my dreams, my plans, are all in His hands.
Where I used to feel out of control around this idea, I now find comfort. I still wrestle with it at times though. Living a one sided relationship with God left me feeling very disappointed and lonely. I was expecting God to make things happen for me, on my timeline and my agenda. Not being willing to sacrifice my desires or lay down my will for His to be done was only holding me back even more.
Letting go of your own plans, in the pursuit of what God has for you is liberating. It allows you to feel freedom and peace that God will provide and create a life for you in which you can best serve Him. A life where you can be a light to those around you. He wants to build a life for you so that when you speak, those around you hear Him. Where the people around you see love, kindness, faithfulness, confidence, assurance, peace, and strength through your life. That’s a life I want to live.
The graphic tees I’m wearing in the images above feature three of my favorite quotes:
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
I am fearfully and wonderfully made
Faith can move mountains
When Solid Light Co reached out to me about a collaboration, there was no hesitation. This is a company rooted in faith with a vision of sharing style and positivity in everything they do. I’m a big believer in stylistic expression and graphic tees are an incredible way to do that.
In a time of year when Jesus is talked about the most, let us be a bright light for His kingdom and shine a light to guide those around us closer to Him.
Photography | Jessica Steddom